For some reason the powers that be in Triggit have decided one of my job duties is to go out and make friends with the Silicon Valley folk. Tonight I went to SF Tech event that Niall Kennedy put on. Zimbra, Joyent and Kerio were presenting their ajax mail and calendar clients. Cool stuff. I had seen both Zimbra and Joyent wow the crowd when I crashed the Web 2.0 conference last fall (shhhh! Don’t tell John or Tim, they don’t know I crashed their shindig). But I thought this might be a good opportunity to meet some new people and pay close attention to presentation styles. But no sooner had I sat down then my mind started racing about all the stuff I have to do for Triggit tonight.
Every time I do this startup thing I am always impressed with how my life becomes completely overwhelmed. Every waking moment seems to become devoted to thinking about the startup and all the things needing to be done. What I find even more interesting is the way my thoughts and feelings evolve and develop during that process.
In the beginning everything is simply great. A new intoxicating idea appears and all I can do is think about it, the ramifications and how it might be applied. I have ideas like this all the time. Most don’t last a day. Yet every now and then an idea will grow and develop in a way that gets me more and more excited. This is the fun part.
Then the work begins. But this is still fun work (reading about new stuff is cool), as we research the background assumptions and see if this can actually fly. At this point I am pretty much thinking about it 24/7 (yep even dreaming). Most ideas that make it past the first week die here as the research shows I didn’t know what the hell I was talking about.
But if for some reason the idea makes it past the initial research phase then the real gut check happens. Now we have to decide if we are going to leap into this or let it chill. Tough choice. This is Sue’s and my fourth startup but some of them require more of a leap of faith then others. Assuming we make the leap then the real work begins. We begin the transition into 24/7 startup mode.
Startup mode is where we start cashing in all the chips we have been building up over the years. Calls go out. An executive summary gets written. Meetings are set. The goal here is to see if this is something that has the capacity to get other people as excited as we are. We have not had one that flopped here yet, but I am sure one of these days a crazy idea will be received with the look of bemusement it deserves. Either way this is a huge test. If we can’t get other people excited about our idea its time to bail and cut our loses. This part of the process can be quite short or extended depending upon how many of the people we need to contact are already in our network. VFS took about six months to take off. Triggit started getting traction almost immediately.
Concurrently with our outreach effort are the days of the million tasks. More things than I can every keep track of have to be done yesterday. It seems like every moment has a to do list ten times bigger than can be accomplish. Something has to be created out of nothing. I love it.
At some point during this process of trying to get traction and creating something out of nothing is a moment I have never identified but always felt. Stress. In the beginning it is all fun and games. A voyage into whimsy as we fantasize about what might be. Then it is the ultimate challenge as we shape a castle out of twigs and try to convince people it is real. If it all collapses it is to be expected since we are trying to accomplish the impossible, no big loss. But at some point it becomes real. Usually its when someone gives up a good job to join the team, an investor trusts us with their money or a customer gives us a contract. Suddenly there are people depending on us to execute. It is still an awesome experience but of a very different nature. In a lot of ways it is a lot like the transition from messing around in the terrain park on the ski hill to dropping down a narrow chute with jagged rocks on both sides, messing up is going to hurt a lot more.
Tonight as I sat and watched Zimbra do their demo, I could see Dave- the CEO of their competitor Joyent-sitting in the corner, his face clearly showing the strain. As I sat there with the million things I need to do for Triggit tumbling through my head I could empathize.